I was never meant to be on that train.
The night before, I stood outside my ex’s apartment, frozen more by emotion than the cold. We had one of those long, aching talks—the kind where you pretend there’s still something to salvage.
But deep down, I knew it was already over. The worst part wasn’t the ending. It was how I’d lost myself along the way.
That night something inside me cracked open. By dawn, with swollen eyes and an empty heart, I found myself at the train station. I didn’t care where I was going—just somewhere that wasn’t here. I bought the first outbound ticket without looking.
That’s when I saw him. A golden retriever sitting quietly beside a man on a bench. His coat shimmered like honey in the morning light, and when our eyes met, it felt like he saw right through me—and didn’t flinch. There was calm in him, like an anchor in a storm.
I sat nearby, unsure what I was running from or toward. Then the dog stood, walked straight to me, and gently rested his head on my leg. I froze. The man raised an eyebrow. “That’s… unexpected,” he said. “Buddy doesn’t usually do that.”
But Buddy didn’t move. He stayed with me, quiet and steady. I whispered to him—about the breakup, the guilt, how I’d lost myself trying to be loved. He just listened. No judgment. Just presence.
His person—Sam—watched, then spoke softly. “We’re headed to a cabin near Lake Crescent for the weekend. It’s quiet out there. You’re welcome to join. No pressure. Just… Buddy seems to think you need this.”
I almost said no. But then Buddy looked up at me again, and somehow, I felt safe. So I said yes.
The cabin was tucked deep in the woods, where time moved slower. We hiked misty trails, sat by the fire, and watched sunlight ripple across the lake.
I spoke more to Sam—about losing my voice, about forgetting how to be alone without feeling lonely. He listened. He never tried to fix me.
“Sometimes,” he said one night beneath a sky full of stars, “the bravest thing you can do is walk away.”
Buddy barked softly, like he agreed.
I wasn’t healed when I left. But I was lighter. Before I boarded the train home, Sam handed me a note. Inside, a quote: “Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes it’s the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, ‘I will try again tomorrow.’”
Back home, I didn’t pretend I was okay. But I started writing again. Little things. Thoughts. Fragments. Pieces of myself.
Weeks later, I saw a post—Buddy and Sam at a local shelter event. I went without thinking. Buddy saw me—and ran like no time had passed.
I started volunteering. Walking dogs. Cleaning kennels. Showing up. And in helping them, I found pieces of me again.
Months later, Sam invited me on another trip. This time, I said yes without hesitation.
Buddy wasn’t just a dog. He was something more—a quiet guide wrapped in golden fur. He reminded me that healing doesn’t always shout. Sometimes it comes in silence, in presence, in being seen—and staying anyway.
That train ride wasn’t an escape. It was the start of coming home.